Why

you went away and i'm still trying to figure out why?
all the talks, the mail, the letter, the music....
why did you go?
you have no idea the amount of hurt you have caused
i had no idea i could be hurt again after what happened to my son
but here i sit again, hurt, lonely and wondering why

sophisticated lady....a few grey hairs...you said you didn't mind
i would've crawled if that's what you had wanted.....you know that

even angels need love too...i thought you knew that, though you did
bring out the devil in me....you removed your halo and moved on and left me here...alone....

never meant to cause me trouble? well, that went over well....you
caused more trouble and hurt than the spider web could ever have
you turned to run and never looked back....and the harm, well that can't
even be talked about

and the song we danced to? you want to #@$% me,,,,well you got
that and apparently that's all you ever wanted...was the whole ruse necessary for that? the lying, the lines, i DONT understand it....

you did let me down, but are not here to pick me up..........
ha, climb up?
wish i could look inside and see what's in your mind.....
forgive you? do you even care.....
you won't walk or talk with me, i've already walked away

maybe this was the most appropriate one: ride on, see you
why couldn't you have said that in the first place......
never go with me no matter how you wanted to? i guess i should've figured that from the beginning.......broke heart, dried tears.......

even better....
you think i shouldn't want to love you or tell u that
still feel it
i'm not trying to make life harder?
i will go down with this ship
i won't put my hands up
and surrender
you left too much mess and destruction
cause nothin but trouble....can't talk to you again
if you live by the rules that it's over???????
i will go down with this ship
won't put my hands up
no white flag above
when we meet
i'm sure we will
hold my tongue
you will think that i've moved on............
broken heart and all.........

oh and cant forget...we got tonight
really, so weary, but stayed with you anyway
my plans never included you and still there we were
both of us lonely......no one will care? maybe just your wife.....
who needs tomorrow
been so lonely...hopes fading away...longed for love like everyone else...
searching even after today......really?

can't find a better man? won't even touch on this one
she lies and says she's in love with him? does that sound familiar to you?
you leave yourself in that position....it will go back to that
no matter how you try....pretend still sleep
dreams in red....can't find a better man? why do you still love????
there's no one else who needs to know.....................
now she swears he's gone
can't find a better man
she loved him..she needs him....she'll be back again...........

i've had you so many times, but somehow want more
don't mind spending everyday out on your corner
look for the girl with the broken smile and heart....
you'll find her here
i want to make you feel beautiful......so insecure...
doesn't matter anymore
compromise it moves us along....
come anytime you want
broken smile......wants to stay awhile
she will be loved......

we'll do it all....everything.....on our own
don't need anything(one)
i would've lay with you.......
to just forget the world
anytime(place)
how to say...how i feel...those 3 words.....said too much
not enough
i would've just layed with you and forgotten the world
forget what we're told.....before we get too old
i would've showed you.....
chasing cars....around
need your grace.....to remind.....find my own

i think i've gotten them all now
makes me cry still
listen anyway.....tears falling down and you not hear to catch them this time
so many miles, an ocean really, but want could've conquered that....
why did you go
why did you say
why aren't you here

did you lie about your marriage? are you staying for your child?
been there, done that...it doesn't work.....it will just hurt her in the end
you must see for yourself i guess....
i had so much to give, to teach, to learn....why
why why are you gone?

have to live and get through this and past this and move on?
but how does that happen? i thought heartbreak was over? how did this happen? put it in a box and leave it...
don't open the box......keep it hidden forever
keep it in the box where the feelings of mother grief are
keep the lid on
sophistication and grace are more important than saving something
that shouldn't be saved....learn to bow out before things get worse and more hurt can be felt

hearts can be mended....minds can't forget though
never forget you....no matter what...cannot forget you
opened my eyes and my heart to possibilities.....thought i couldn't love again after my son....i can though and he would be happy.....sad to see my cry, but happy that i learned i can open my heart after all.....i have kept it closed for 20 months....never thought to reopen until you.....

WHY?